Hello world!
I’ve finally doing what I’ve wanted to do for about four years—starting a blog. Like a real blog, with my very own “.com” as a part of the web address. Eeek!
I’ve blogged in the past in multiple places and have changed my blog’s name about a dozen times. After I had my second baby I started feeling like maybe I could get serious about blogging, and I tried, but then real life took over and I stopped trying so hard. Now here I am—two years later—and I’m starting over.
I think part of my dilemma was not knowing what I was going to fill up a blog with. Fitness? Weight loss? Motherhood? (Cause I’ve got plenty I could or should say about any of those topics) but nothing seemed to be resonating with me. Then in September of last year we bought our second home and a light bulb went “ding, ding, ding” inside my mind.
You see, our home is quite the fixer upper, one I’d love to have Joanna Gaines come work her magic on. Every woman’s dream!
Ammiiiiright?
Anyway, this house has projects on top of projects. It’s overwhelming to think of all the things—big and small—that need to be done. I’m not going to lie, all the ideas I’ve got for this place, and thinking about how long it’s going to take…it keeps me up at night. If we had a budget like Joanna Gaines has to work with, on her fixer uppers, we’d get this thing done in no time.
But alas, we are a normal middle class family with one income. *Sigh*
To say it’s going to take a while is an understatement. I mean, we’ve already been here for 8 months and all we’ve done is remove some wallpaper in the living room (and the wallpaper is everywhere, people!).
So now that you know what I’m working with, maybe you’ll understand why I thought I had a pretty good motivation to finally get a blog up and running. I think this blog is going to be the perfect thing to help keep us motivated to tackle our long list of projects, and it’s going to be an awesome place to document everything. Not just our home renovations, but also our life as a family of four.
It took me a while to get this started. I’ve been dreaming about blog names and content ever since we moved in, and I’m just now getting the guts to start putting everything together.
I have this journal of mine sitting on my nightstand, I see it every night, and write in it a few times a week. But today I realized I haven’t been paying the slightest attention to the cover. The quote is totally speaking to me right now.
This blog and the idea of blogging—sharing stuff about me and my family and hoping that people are interested enough to read it—scares me to death, or at least very near to death.
Because, I mean, what if no one likes me? What if absolutely no one reads anything I write? What if I bore people?
Fears, fears, fears. They can be paralyzing if you let them.
I’ve been postponing all of this for months now, telling myself to “wait until you lose another 10 pounds before posting pictures of yourself on a blog” or “wait until you have more money to spend on projects” or “wait until you’ve got your life more figured out.”
You know what all that waiting has done for me? Absolutely nothing. Have I lost another 10 pounds? No. Have we saved more money for projects? Not enough. Is my life figured out yet? Not even freaking close!
Waiting has gotten me nowhere—just more reasons to wait, and more time to lose.
I’m done waiting. Today I’m choosing to ignore the self-doubting going on inside my head. I’m choosing to post this and show the world (or the 10 of you who are reading this) that I am here and I’m telling my self-doubting mind to go to H-E-double hockey sticks. I might not be 100% ready, but sometimes you’ve just got to jump in the water and hope you don’t drown. Sometimes you just have to start.
Or more eloquently, I’m going to do what I’ve wanted to do, whether or not people like me. Because you can’t live your life solely trying to impress or please others, right?
You just gotta do you. And that’s what I’m going to try doing here.
xoxo,
Sheridan
P.S. Stay tuned for a house tour! The stuff that the previous owner did to this place will make you scratch your head, for sure!